Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Whatever Comes Next

 "I don't know where I'm going to be in four months," I confessed to my friend. "I don't know what state I'll be in, where I will live, where I will work."

 "Wow," she said. "If I were you I would be freaking out right now."

 She meant it as a compliment, but I couldn't accept it because the truth is I am freaking out.

 In another conversation with a friend, she shared with me some bad things in her life that happened unexpectedly and how through that she was shown how much she wants control over her life- control that only belongs to God.

 I am the same way. I had a plan, a blueprint for God to follow, and though he deviated from it in some areas, things seemed like they were beginning to get back on track when I began college. Until God showed me in many different ways that He doesn't follow my plan.

 "So what's your plan?" a lady asked me after I told her I was a senior.

 "The plan is to get a plan," I said.

 She laughed and commiserated with me, but I kept coming back to that conversation later, and I realized that a lot of the fear I have about after I graduate is from not having a plan.

 See, in four months I don't know where I will be. And that was not part of the plan. A huge part of the plan was that I would always know the plan. I would always know where I was headed, what I would do, and where I would be. I would be in control.

 I love how in a friend's application essay she used the phrase "whatever comes next" to describe post graduation.

 Whatever comes next

 I don't know what that will be. But God does.

 Four months from now I could be living at home again. I could be on my own in Michigan. Though it seems very unlikely, I could be living in a totally new state. I don't know what will happen. And I am scared.

 But God already knows what comes next.

 I am scared of living at home again. I am scared of living on my own. I am scared simply of the unknown. I am scared of every option.

 But God has always known what will come next.

 So this is my plan: Trust God, search different options, and trust the God who created you, called you, saved you, died for you, has always provided for you, will never leave you nor forsake you. 

 Here's to whatever comes next. I await the adventure knowing that He is with me.


  1. I'm in a similar situation right now Allison, so I really appreciate you sharing this.
    A quote that has been very encouraging to me recently comes from Tim Tebow--"I don't know what my future holds but I do know Who holds my future."

  2. Yes yes yes! Jeremiah 29:11, my sweet friend. ;) Praying for you! <3

  3. This definitely sounds like a scary and stressful time of life. Again, you come to the right conclusion that is the answer to all our fears...trust God. Easier said than done, eh? ;) Praying for you!

    1. Yes, easier said than done. Thank you, Paige. I appreciate the prayers.

  4. Good post Allison. I pray the Lord will give you guidance and strength. I was always a very goal-oriented person with a plan. I sort of took pride in having it all figured out. Things did not work as I had planned; I've faced disappointment and frustration. But I'm glad. I've grown, and God has seen me through. Life is beautiful, and God has a plan far greater than we could ever imagine.

    1. Yes, well said. Thanks for praying for me. :)